50 Questions: 41-50

Quiz taken from “Fifty Questions That Will Free Your Mind” via Fug Girl Heather Cocks. See 1-10, 11-20, 21-30, 31-40.

41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? What a horrible thing to imagine. My immediate family.

42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous? No.

43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living? This is tricky, because it’s easy to think you’re answering this question when you’re really just being judgmental toward other people. I think the real difference is whether you, deep down, feel as though you’re just going through the motions or not.

44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right? After you calculate the risk and rewards. Do the math, so you know that answer, but then follow your gut, whether or not it matches the math.

45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? Because learning hurts.

46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? I’d worry a lot damn less.

47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? Right now. Thanks for that.

48. What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? Fresh air, a good book, feeling exhausted from a good workout, laughing with people I adore, vanilla ice cream, sleeping till I can’t sleep anymore.

Yes.

49. In five years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that? Yesterday I transplanted a lilac. Saturday I had an insane morning and then a lazy evening with some of my favorite people. Friday I had a dimly lit dinner with some more favorite people. Not thrilling, but I liked it, and now that I’ve written it down, I’ll remember it.

50. Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? I very rarely let other people take the reins. Whether this is good or bad depends on context – but I’d say that no, I rarely let other people make decisions for me.

That’s it. Is my mind especially freed? Not sure.